It seems like I have everything,and its all up to me on how to live with it.I admit I feel depress all the time, seeing all my friends working with their busy lives, I know I can be busy,I can definitely find other ways to make myself busy with something else, but I dont know why I chose to be like this....like waking up and think for a couple of times if I want to work or not and this make me sick...I guess I need inspiration,but I do have my Family to think of..I have a wonderful Mother which I need to think and thank of,of all the things and sacrifices she went to provide everything for me...I can always think of my Father who stood by my Mother through rough times,and of course I can always think of God Almighty for this wonderful life He gave...I think they are all enough reasons to stand up and enjoy life the way it should be...but why is it that I cant think of all those reasons everyday?...it is really true that I need to have a very close relationship with God,because I believe He will lead me to the right path.
It all boils down to something else,I think I need another inspiration,another motivation.it can be someone else...but if it is...why is it I havent found her yet?but i can definitely wait.but im not the type of guy who can tell.."Hey I like you"...but when will I learn..when will I have the balls to tell her...
For the past few months I met this Lady,which did not catch my attention at all, she was just plainly a simple typical respected woman,maybe its because shes older than me, and for some other reasons i cannot explain any further what is my connection with her or how we met...sshhh..they might find out..but she`s really a good soul I can say...I think no one else has angst or grudge against her...and for the past few weeks I realize I like her.Shes not that pretty, but she is beautiful in my eyes...AW!...I like on how she deals with people...I like the way she laughs and pissed off...because I cant really tell if shes mad or not...and I have been thinking about her all the time...and i can tell she has really no idea what I am feeling about her....How will I be able to let her know...I hope I will get to know her better...
And this concludes....does my heart beats again?....
