FAIL

Hehehe..this is the word i`ve been pondering for the past few days...and there is no way for me to be in a relationship right now...I cant even wash or iron my clothes, and why should I settle for someone else if I cant handle my daily responsibilities....and it should always start with myself..

I must learn how to live life independently,learn to say NO to things I usually, normally do, like drinking beer like there`s no tomorrow,smoking cancer sticks whenever I wanted...I know these are a big "Turn off" for other girls....

After ending my tragic relationship 3 years ago, I started doing things that does not really impress girls, I worked my ass off so i will be able to buy booze that would satisfy my high level intake of intoxication....and after doing these things I stop for a while and think that I made a mistake, regret all the things that I`ve done..and after few days or weeks will past, i normally go back to my usual habit of cigarettes and alcohol, and will be wasted after, ponder again of the shits that I made...so its like a cycle...and they say life is a cycle right?...

And it came to a point where I got sick of all these stuffs, its maybe because im not getting any younger anymore, and my vital organs are screaming to stop it. but luckily they are still doing fine, my kidneys may have complained before, but now he is back on track,my lungs are used to this thick black cancerous nick!.my liver is very cooperative, and i`d like to thank them for being with me all through out, but I know they wont be long if I slowly kill them with alcohol and nicotine..

Well, hopefully I wont be doing those things before, I have to renovate myself first before getting into a relationship.

FAIL?...not