not again

Ok..so i have decided that I just have to play is simple, er not to take it too seriously, since I have been this way for months now, I mean I have been dreeeeaming or being in the state of illusion that She knows seriously or deeply what i feel for Her, and until now, I do still like Her, but the problem is, after knowing She does not want to be courted I decided to stop it. since I respect Her and it could be annoying if I pursue it, right..

So...its just a waiting game, and its not that im waiting in vain, I`ll have to let things happen, if hopefully she`ll like me too as being me so it would be really awesome. I`ve tried to pretend to things that im not, but its really not proper, and yeah "just be yerself" <--ahh an old school quote and very applicable to any instances.

If given a chance...i can ask her personally if she wanted me to accompany her while waiting for her jeepney to arrive, but its really difficult, its so hard, i think i need to be drunk or a bit tipsy to have the guts to tell her this.

Ok.....so if I really like her, I can definitely wait for her after shift since she mostly go home late and do those things, well hell yeah i`ve thinking about it a million of times.but I cant its just that easy.I still dont have the guts though....maybe next time

P.S. Love to squeeze yer bubbly cheeks!