changes

It`s a sign of aging I guess, before I always see to it that I have to be drunk even once a week, and a week without alcohol feels like forever for me, but since January I have been sober, I can count how many times I have been drunk since the start of the year. I lost my appetite in alcohol which is a big impact in my life, I started saving my money for emergency purposes, I jogged if i`m feeling weak. I have been planning to buy a mountain bike so I can go to other places where my limbs alone cant bring me, but after consulting my Parents, they demanded not to buy one, vehicle these days are dangerous and our place is not very conducive for cycling purposes.

I have been planning to resign from work and offer myself to work at a hospital but things change constantly that I found enjoyment back at the office. A lot of my co workers keep pushing me to apply for a higher position but I have been hesitant that I cant handle the job, Maybe its because I want an easier life, which is not supposed be right, I`m not getting any longer and compared to my classmates I have been earning a small part of their salary, but I have been happy this way, earning not much, enjoy, complain a little, expect a little, and I am in a state where i work not for my family,not for anyone but for me alone.

I have not experienced that my Parents forced me to give them money or share what I earned., but if we have time I treat them for ice cream,we dine out,just small stuffs that I know they will really appreciate, and not to brag myself I have been buying a can of powdered milk for my Grandmother every month, and never failed to pay the monthly dues on our 32 inch LCD tv.

At times I feel guilty my Parents raised me, sent me to college, where I can practice and earn a profession, but look where I am now, stuck in a world where everybody else does. At least I earn a little shit compared to nothing.