i really can tell

I really can tell or I can really tell...which is which?but whatever it is its the right thing to say, I have been watching her for months already, and there`s a feeling that I hope she didnt notice me or I hope she`d notice me. This is so high-schoolish type of stuff, but I have been happy being this way for months already. I wonder what she would feel if she knows everything, I tried texting her some horrible stuffs, for me its horrible since I was not able to receive any reply or something, its a sign that she not interested.

I admit I have been keen in getting into a relationship and have weigh things, and it`s so annoying that I have been hiding these things from her, Every time we meet in the hallway or any other place I find it hard to smile back and even looking straight to her. If She only knew I have been dying to talk to her, we can talk anything under the sun, by looking at her I can tell she is smart, or probably has anything to say in any topic, and one thing that I admires me most in every Girl is when she outsmarts me, and I am not smart.