if only

This phrase are very common in every event of your life. It`s another sleepless night and it`s Holy Week time to ponder about God`s sacrifices. As I browse or stalk should I say my ex gf`s facebook account I cant help but notice and stare at her profile pic and thought My Oh My she is really fat. She gained weight I guess, but I admit She is still pretty, like they always say, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, <--shit,this line is ancient.

Moving is the word best describes of what should I be right now, everybody grows old every year,and at my age I should have gain more than what I earn right now, I guess it`s a turning point of my life,where I could have put up my own family, earn big big bucks,working abroad maybe. but I`m still stuck at my Parents crib,still doing what I was doing after graduation, Drink,booze,smoke,party all night,sleep all day,